My name is Justine and I am addicted to sugar…………….

My name is Justine and I AM addicted to sugar!  Seriously, WTF!  I just spent 30 days, the whole month of January fasting and being awesome…..Now I am back addicted to sugar and almost gained all my weight back that I had lost.  I need an intervention!  This is my cry for help.  I am admitting my addiction, and need/want to change.  I don’t like the voice inside my head saying eat me, eat me, eat me!

Earlier this week, I ate awesome all day long drank lots of water and felt great, but in the back of my mind all I could think about were the Oreo cookies I was going to eat when I got home.  And I wasn’t going to eat just one, no, I have to have a whole sleeve.

Today is MY day and the day I am changing forever!  I need this and want this bad!

I am making a phone call to my trainer and friend and maybe he’ll have some words of wisdom.  I am going to need a ton of support, because I know I can’t do this alone.

I can do this and I WILL!

I thought my fast was going to shock my brain (my addiction) and that was going to be the end of it.  But, what I forgot or didn’t realize this is an every day choice.  To be addicted or not to be?  Everyday I will have to ask that question.  Is it worth being heavy, I do love my curves!  But they aren’t healthy curves. Not only are my curves unhealthy, my head is unhealthy.  When I fasted my head was so clear there was nothing unclear, I could see, feel, hear miles and miles away!  That’s the truth!  Not eating was and is way easier than making this decision and telling the world I’m addicted and need help.

I’m not saying I’m getting on a gym plan today and going to be in the gym 7 days a week, that will come with time.  I need not to eat sugar, processed sugar!  No cookies, cakes, soda, ice cream, whatever else. I probably can’t even have natural sugar for a while.  I have no idea. I need healthy, stable, in-your face help daily making decision tactics.

I am ready to face my fear are you?  If you are ready to face your addiction feel free to message me and I will help you get help or we can do this together!

 

Day 5!

Day 5

January 6, 2012

I am going to ROCK day 5!  I have a lot of energy this morning; it feels like a normal day while eating, but better.  I slept well, still cold but that’s a given.  Since it’s supposed to be warm here in WI, I plan to take 2.5 mile walk.

Thank you all for following my blog and checking back daily to see how I am doing.  The support makes me push even harder, if not for myself but for all of you cheering me on!  My clothes are fitting better and by Monday, I should be down a size.  I have lost 10lbs in 5 days.

*I would like to state that I am not fasting to lose weight*   as I said I have been a yo-yo dieter and eater, I know how to lose weight the right way with diet and exercise.

There are many reasons people to choose fast and yes some do fast for weight loss.  After one is done fast, they will gain back 5-10lbs right away.  About half of this weight is stored in your colon, yup its poop!  Well, I am off to work and will check back later.  Have a great day today!

WOW!  I have so much energy today. I am feeling as though I could run a marathon! Yes, that’s how much energy I have.  I am really spunky and have had a smile on my face since 7am! it really is an awesome feeling.  I did take that 2.5 mile walk, I stopped a few times to take a drink and I could feel my quads and calves burning.  I feel so liberated!

So the rest of my day went great too!  Had funeral, and then of course out to eat with my husband.  I drank water, 🙂 Still have as much energy as I did earlier.  I can’t tell how cool it is that I have this much much energy, with just water in my system, a very cool feeling!  I don’t feel too hungry; it comes and goes like an itch.  As long as I keep myself full of water I am good.

This weekend should be good.  Just need to occupy my time with something positive and rewarding to do when I become bored.