My name is Justine and I am addicted to sugar…………….

My name is Justine and I AM addicted to sugar!  Seriously, WTF!  I just spent 30 days, the whole month of January fasting and being awesome…..Now I am back addicted to sugar and almost gained all my weight back that I had lost.  I need an intervention!  This is my cry for help.  I am admitting my addiction, and need/want to change.  I don’t like the voice inside my head saying eat me, eat me, eat me!

Earlier this week, I ate awesome all day long drank lots of water and felt great, but in the back of my mind all I could think about were the Oreo cookies I was going to eat when I got home.  And I wasn’t going to eat just one, no, I have to have a whole sleeve.

Today is MY day and the day I am changing forever!  I need this and want this bad!

I am making a phone call to my trainer and friend and maybe he’ll have some words of wisdom.  I am going to need a ton of support, because I know I can’t do this alone.

I can do this and I WILL!

I thought my fast was going to shock my brain (my addiction) and that was going to be the end of it.  But, what I forgot or didn’t realize this is an every day choice.  To be addicted or not to be?  Everyday I will have to ask that question.  Is it worth being heavy, I do love my curves!  But they aren’t healthy curves. Not only are my curves unhealthy, my head is unhealthy.  When I fasted my head was so clear there was nothing unclear, I could see, feel, hear miles and miles away!  That’s the truth!  Not eating was and is way easier than making this decision and telling the world I’m addicted and need help.

I’m not saying I’m getting on a gym plan today and going to be in the gym 7 days a week, that will come with time.  I need not to eat sugar, processed sugar!  No cookies, cakes, soda, ice cream, whatever else. I probably can’t even have natural sugar for a while.  I have no idea. I need healthy, stable, in-your face help daily making decision tactics.

I am ready to face my fear are you?  If you are ready to face your addiction feel free to message me and I will help you get help or we can do this together!

 

with my head held high, I will not sulk

with my head held high, I will not sulk.

 

Eating: A New Challenge

Good Morning!

I have received so many emails and FB messages wanting more from me. I now have been back from Florida for a week now and it’s time to give in to your addiction to me 😉

Please note, that I have felt that I have nothing more to share with you, that I am done fasting and eating normal so what’s left? What’s left only every meal and snack of the day! I have missed all of you and our support system we have going on. So today I am starting a new challenge!

Eating: A New Challenge

Eating….fasting was so much easier! No good or bad choices to make, no wondering is this good enough, should I be eating more protein, less fats, more fruits, etc. AHHH! It’s a daunting task but I enjoy it and hey, we do need to eat!

So I will be taking photo of everything I put into my mouth! OK, food that is…….Haven’t decided how I’m going to post, if it will be at the end of the day or throughout the day! Trial and error is the way it’s going to be. I will also be posting recipes and such to go along with them. If you have any other suggestions, wants or needs please let me know! This is starting Monday!

I have a ton of work to do as I am putting our house on the Market Monday and my photographer is coming tomorrow to take pictures. Lots, LOTS! to do!

I have gained 15lbs back since my fast ended which is right about where I thought I would be. I still look and feel great. I have not gone back on my depression medication and have felt no need for it. I am planning another fast in July, maybe a two week fast? I have not started working out on a daily basis as I thought I would have started by now….No excuses, I am lazy! It’s really hard getting back in the routine of working out. Going to the gym at 5 am to get your ass kicked….sounds awesome right?

I did make up my salad mason jars though…they were yummy. I bought regular mouth mason jars and not widemouth, so I have to dump-out the salad into a bowl to eat it, silly me!

Also, I wanted to share with all of you my main website Amazingg Acres http://amazinggacres.com/ Here you can find my fasting diaries, my home for sale and other DIY projects. I hope you enjoy and follow it!

 

 

What I’m eating NOW!

I am on my 5th day of our 11 day vacation!  It’s going by super fast and we are having a great time.

I am eating well and still drinking about 2 gallons of water.  I have gained about 15 pounds back, so not quite half of the 34 pounds. On to what I am eating…For dinner I always eat a salad before any meat and or side dish. My salads consist of organic spinach and very with toppings; strawberries, walnuts, cran-raisons, boiled eggs and few other things.  I don’t add too much salad dressing, I put a teaspoon or two on my plate, then dip my fork in the dressing before stabbing the spinach and other goodness.

Breakfast has normally consisted of eggs.  One morning I did have Honey Nut Cheerios, to be honest I used to love cereal, now I could go without it.  I like eggs much better!

Lunch has been more carb filled than I would have liked.  I have been eating more sandwiches than anything.  Not a very good choice on my part, but I have been packing them to go to the beach and outings.

Been snacking on green grapes, strawberries, raw nuts, bananas and the occasional cheetos and fritos, occasional!

Hope you are all doing well.  Sorry I am not posting so daily.  I will get back to the grind in a week.  I also have some great news to share with you when I get back.

There are some beautiful views here and we are having some much needed family time.  Our son is thriving here and loving being on vacation.

We surprised him with our Florida vacation.  We told him we were going to look at a dirt bike in IL. Once we got to the airport, we told him that this is where we were meeting the guy with the bike.  he was actually excited about seeing the new bike. As I opened the back of the truck he saw all of our luggage and got this enormous smile and asked if we were going on a vacation 🙂

This was his first time riding a on an airplane and going to Fl.

He’s having a BLAST!

 

Checking In

Hello!

 

I have missed you all!  I feel like it’s been forever since blogging and it’s only been a day 🙂

So as I told you before, I would gain about 10lbs back within a week of eating I am half way there.  As of this morning I had gained 5lbs back.  You can’t tell, it’s most likely water weight and waste.

I have been eating like a bird.  I did make chicken noodle soup, but left the noodles out as I want to stay away from carbs. 

I have noticed that the first few times of eating, I can feel the food go through my veins….that’s a pretty cool feeling!  It was like all the goodness from the soup was rushing to nourish my body!  I’m still eating pretty slow and bland things.

I have said this before but this is going to be really hard!  Harder than anything I’ve done in a long time.  Not eating was so easy compared to this.

Jack Canfield (The Success Principals) has an awesome saying, he says: “99% is a bitch. 100% is a breeze.”

That’s what I’m feeling right now…………..

This will get easier!  I will make good decision! This will become a habit!

 

My First Meal after 30 Days of Water

~ The Hard Stuff Begins ~

Dinner last night was AMAZING!  It was an awesome night, it couldn’t have been better.  Clear soup was a great decision and the sushi was delicious too.  I started out trying new things and I actually liked them!  That was exciting super for me!  I tried the ginger dressing, which was yummy!  I also tried the wasabi in soy sauce and just a wasabi by itself!  I can def. go without wasabi, but glad I tried it.

While I was eating I felt as though I hadn’t eaten for a month and was rushing through my food.  It was all going down really fast, and in my head I felt like I was a scavenger and couldn’t get enough….in reality I was eating  v e r y,  v  e  r  y,  s   l   o   w    l   y.  My sister was done with her food before I got my second piece of sushi to my mouth.  It was really weird, because I thought I was eating really fast 🙂

I also thought I would get a stomach ache or feel uncomfortable, but I didn’t I felt fine.  Great!  I ordered a to-go soup for today and will be making chicken noodle soup.  Need to find a good rice noodle recipe.  Or GF noodle.  If you know of any I’d love to know.

I will be posting a before and after in a couple of hours.  Have to get to swimming lessons!  I also have a video, if I can figure out how to get that uploaded for you.

Have a fabulous day!

OK….Here it is!  What you’ve all been waiting for….My before and after shots!

Like I said yesterday, I do not promote anorexia, and fasting and anorexia are two different things.

I lost a total of 34 pounds and plan to continue to lose weight by eating right and exercising.

 

I Made It 30 Days!

Day 30!

January 31, 2012

I made it! I rock! I’m ready to eat!

What an awesome experience, 30 days without eating…I don’t even believe it and I DID it! 🙂  I am in shock, truly; it’s hard to believe that I did this.  If I can do this I can do anything.

Takara tonight, clear soup…I can already taste it.

I will be showing before and after pictures but will say this now and tomorrow.

I am showing you my pictures because I have so many great followers and I know I have firsthand inspired so many people to cleanse their bodies, pray or just do something they thought they couldn’t do.  Many associate fasting with anorexia and I am NOT promoting that.  Fasting and anorexia are two different things and involve so much more than NOT eating.  Many don’t show before and after picture for this reason alone.  I do not want to inspire anyone to start or continue being anorexic.

I will say this again tomorrow to as it concerns me.

I will post after my clear soup!  It won’t be until late, 9 or so.

So hang in there and have an amazing day!

Ugh! My clear soup was amazing!  It was better than I remember.  Plus I had sushi to, WOW! I sure was missing out on good eats.

I tried the ginger dressing that was sweet, wasabi, I could go without that.  I did get a small (big) bit of wasabi on my chopstick and right on the tip of my tongue it went, then down went the water. J That was HOT!  I did get video which I will post tomorrow along with my before and after.

Thank you all for keeping me motivated! 

 

Day 29

Day 29

January 30, 2012

Good Evening!

I had an awesome day at work today.  A few salt cravings and but nothing a little water couldn’t cure.  Tomorrows the BIG day!  Can’t wait!  Clear soup here I come! 🙂  I will take pictures.

I will also give you before and after pictures.  Wednesday I plan on doing my first workout and giving you a peak into what I’ll be doing. I am excited for that.

To tell you all again, I will be eating well in FL, but not on my “diet” or lifestyle change/new food menu.  I will make good choices, but will have desserts and I’m sure a glass of wine or two.  I am going on vacation so I am going to act like I’m on vacation.  I will tell you what I am eating though.  Just to keep me on track and you posted.  I will start my food menu when I return.  I do in fact plan to workout though!  This is a great thing 🙂

 

I forgot to tell you that I had my blood pressure checked yesterday and it was great!  I have always had great blood pressure and it hasn’t changed!  Whoo hoo for ME!

 

Day 28

Day 28

January 29, 2012

 

So this morning consisted of cleaning and cooking.  I made an awesome breakfast and lots of bacon to freeze.  I plan on making a waffle sandwich this week that has bacon in it.

I made my cheese Friday night and I over cooked it so it’s not so edible.  I will try again this week.  I am also making homemade chicken noodle soup and am going to try to make pan fried rice noodles.  We’ll see how that works 😉

I plan on going to Takara Tuesday night for soup.  Hopefully it’ll settle with my stomach.

 

Day 27

Day 27                                                                                                                                                                                  

January 28, 2012

 

Sorry I didn’t post yesterday.  I was super busy!  It was an emotional day yesterday.  Some of my family was packing up my great Grandparents house.  We had to take everything down, pictures, knick knacks, etc.  Everything went into boxes and down in the basement.

Normally I am ok with death and change, but yesterday was a different story.  I cried all the way there and cried a lot during the packing.  I didn’t pack much, just couldn’t do it emotionally.  Normally I eat and such and then I feel nothing, well full and guilt.  But seeing as I couldn’t do that I just cried.  That’s all I could do.  So it was a very emotional day.  I did get through it though.

Then we had a party and that was a lot of fun!  I didn’t get home until late and was waay too tired to write.

So I have been ready to eat and am craving saltines, crackers, salty soups.  So my sister gave me some salt tablets and I took one yesterday and that really helped.  I must de deficient in salt.